Samuel's Story Part #1 - Our Little Saint

I was so excited to be nearing the end of my first trimester and to share with everyone our excitement about our 4th child joining our family this summer!  We were SO thrilled that God had entrusted our family with another sweet soul. Instead I am needing to ask for prayers as we mourn the loss of our little one.  On January 5th, 2015 we found out that our sweet little baby had gone to heaven.  This was one day before my 31st birthday and as our family was finishing up our celebrations for the 12 days of Christmas and preparing for the celebration of the Epiphany.

Losing a child is the hardest thing that I have ever gone through so far in my life.  It is such a whirlwind of emotion to miss someone so much who I never have truly met, to feel such love and support from family and friends, and to also feel so much comfort knowing our child is with God.  I hope and pray that we can see God's purpose in our child's death and that this experience brings our whole family closer to each other and closer to God.  I have not physically lost our baby yet and I know that it will be physically and emotionally painful.  I know that I need to rely on the strength of the Holy Family and of my own family to help me through this. I feel that God is calling me to pick up my cross and experience some redemptive suffering with this journey.  I pray that I have the strength and grace to process through this loss while always trusting in God every step of the way.  We have named our sweet saint Samuel Nicholas and this is his story.

Protected by God's love

I am going to share Samuel's story in different parts as I am emotionally able to write about our story.  I ask you to please pray for my family during this time and for all families who have experienced the loss of a baby or child.

Precious Little One

I'm just a precious little one

who didn't make it there.

I went straight to be with Jesus,

but I'm waiting for you here.

Many dwelling here where I live,

waited years to enter in.

Struggled through a world of sorrow

a world marred with pain and sin.

Thank you for the life you gave me,

it was brief but don't complain.

I have all Heaven's Glory,

suffered none of earth's great pain.

Thank you for the name you gave me.

I'd have loved to bring it fame

But if I'd lingered in earth's shadows,

I would have suffered just the same.

So sweet family don't you sorrow.

Wipe those tears and chase the gloom.

I went straight to Jesus's arms

from my loving Mother's womb.

 

- Author Unknown